Big Enough--Ayeisha Woods

You turned water into wine - how extraordinary
Gave sight to the blind - and still I carry
My own load when you told me
To take your yoke ‘cause yours is easy

And even though my issues seem trivial
You alone are never to imperial
Its just the way that you love me
Its enough to convince me

And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't wanna believe
That you're big enough - but you're big enough yeah!

I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't understand that you're big enough
But you're big enough Jesus!

You turned darkness into light - keep my lamp burning
And you are my everything
There's no denying, your love is so amazing
And even though my problems seem typical
Nothing for you is ever too difficult
You never have reservations - love without limitations

And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't wanna believe
That you're big enough - but you're big enough yeah!

And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't understand
That you're big enough - but you're big enough

Oh, no matter how I try to get around it - I'm reminded
Wherever I go I'm totally surrounded
It's all about you - I can never doubt you
Even if I wanted to…

And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't wanna believe
That you're big enough - but you're big enough yeah!

And I don't wanna box you in
You've been doing big things since the world began
Sometimes I just don't understand
That you're big enough - but you're big enough

That you're big enough
That you're big enough

That you're big enough
That you're big enough yeah!

Extravagant God

I feel like God has been trying to reshape my perception of Him. In fact, I think He's been trying to rip apart the little "box" I had Him in. Here I thought that my picture of God was "out of the box," but I guess I was wrong. As usual.
Lately, God has been telling me to dream. Not just dream, but to dream big, to dream extravagantly, and to dream impractically. Now, this whole "impractical" thing, hasn't gone over too well with me.
Wa-ai-ait...impractical? No, not me. I'm only going to go for what "makes sense" and fits the logical box. Why do you think I chose nursing? It's practical. It fits the mission field "box." It's a useful skill to have...it makes sense.
So, to have someone tell me to dream impractically...that's not so comfortable. It's no longer safe. In fact, it's freaking scary!
Who-ho-hoah!! Wait a second, but aren't You practical God? Right? Don't You do stuff that makes sense???? Like...um...okay...the crossing of the Red Sea, not very practical, building an ark, definitely not practical, walking around Jericho, that didn't make any sense...at all...um...300 Israelites against a bajillion of the enemy...makes no sense whatsoever...a kid fighting a giant, foolish, insane really...okay I give up!!!!!
I guess You're not as practical as I once thought.
But seriously, God, how the heck do my dreams fit together? I don't get it.
It makes absolutely no sense whatsoever to me to study art and music and theater and dance. I feel called to the mission field. Not the theater world. Besides, there's very few places a person can go as an actor or musician if they don't hit it big time. And I DEFINITELY don't feel called into that world. At all. Not that it's not appealing, I just feel as if You've told me "no." Forever. Enough said about that.
That, and I really don't want to be a teacher, which is about the only other place you can go with my passions.
God, it doesn't make sense!!!!!!! It seems like everyone who pursues their passions in the arts ends up working some lame job because they can't make enough money doing what they love. It's so IMPRACTICAL!!!!!
It doesn't make sense.
What I'm passionate about is so....impractical. It's "just because." There's no real use for it other than enjoyment. Yeah, some of it can be an expression of worship, but I don't see how I can go anywhere with it...yet that's all I think about it.
God, I'm confoozled.
But I trust You.

My Two New Life Verses

"Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland."
-Isaiah 43:18-19

"For He will come like a pent-up flood
that the breath of the Lord drives along."
-Isaiah 59:19

The first verse is so wonderful to me because there is such freedom in it. My past does not define me. What has happened before is gone and dead. I can leave it there.
The rest of the verses speak of freedom and hope. God is bringing refreshing to a barren desert. My life has been a barren desert for a long time. But He is bringing healing and life to a broken soul.
I love the second verse, because so many things in my life have felt pent up, boxed, and stagnant. But the dam is about to break, and my heart is about to be overwhelmed. Even now, I can feel the water begin to trickle on my face...Oh God, open the floodgates and let it rain!