God,
It feels so foolish to ask for help, for forgiveness, and a new start. Once again, I've messed up. It seems no matter how hard I try, I always end up in the same predicament. I never get out of this rut...sometimes I make a start, but I always end up back on my face, stuck in the mud. Again.
God, I've been struggling with this for over two years. I just don't know how to get free. I just don't know how to walk in freedom. God, what is it I need to do to no longer be entangled? How do I get out?
Also, I've been thinking about hard hearts. I know that somewhere it talks about wilfull sin and the heart being hardened. What have I been doing but wilfull sin?
I tend to to think that once I mess up I need to do some rigorous discipline to make up for it...but every time I try I end up even worse than I started. God, this is so disheartening. I get discouraged so easily when I live like this. What is it You want for me? How is it You want me to live? And how do I do it?
God, please lead me! Show me the answers and may they permeate my heart. I no longer want head knowledge. I have a lot of that. I want heart knowledge. I want to know Your truth. I want Your truth to change my life.
Hebrews 3:7-8
"Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts."
1 Thessalonians 3:133
"May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones."
Please, Jesus, HELP ME!
Love,
Katelyn
It feels so foolish to ask for help, for forgiveness, and a new start. Once again, I've messed up. It seems no matter how hard I try, I always end up in the same predicament. I never get out of this rut...sometimes I make a start, but I always end up back on my face, stuck in the mud. Again.
God, I've been struggling with this for over two years. I just don't know how to get free. I just don't know how to walk in freedom. God, what is it I need to do to no longer be entangled? How do I get out?
Also, I've been thinking about hard hearts. I know that somewhere it talks about wilfull sin and the heart being hardened. What have I been doing but wilfull sin?
I tend to to think that once I mess up I need to do some rigorous discipline to make up for it...but every time I try I end up even worse than I started. God, this is so disheartening. I get discouraged so easily when I live like this. What is it You want for me? How is it You want me to live? And how do I do it?
God, please lead me! Show me the answers and may they permeate my heart. I no longer want head knowledge. I have a lot of that. I want heart knowledge. I want to know Your truth. I want Your truth to change my life.
Hebrews 3:7-8
"Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts."
1 Thessalonians 3:133
"May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones."
Please, Jesus, HELP ME!
Love,
Katelyn
